Its MY life.

My Flaws

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 12:59:30 -0700

I’m on the quest to find peace.

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 20:24:35 -0800

I’m on the quest to find peace.

Life of an Adult

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 23:30:00 -0700

Preschool = free ride.

Elementary School = parents pay for lunch. (unless you were that lucky kid who’s mommy packed you a lunch and snack) Otherwise, free ride.

Middle School = parents pay for lunch. (unless you were that lucky kid who’s mommy packed you a lunch and snack) Otherwise, free ride.

High School = parents pay for lunch, small fees (sports, class, etc) Otherwise, free ride.

College = $40,650 + personal expenses (per year until degree desired at Pacific Lutheran University)

Everything seems cool until you get passed high school. Can you say parents? Because I can’t… FML.

I love this song. Words have never been more spoken with such...

Fri, 01 Jul 2011 00:52:03 -0700

I love this song. Words have never been more spoken with such honesty <3

beginning of the end.

Fri, 24 Jun 2011 22:38:09 -0700

High school is over, go figure.

College in the fall? I’ve never felt more broke.

Cheers to the beginning of the end.

Rollercoaster

Mon, 05 Jul 2010 21:59:00 -0700

I feel like I am on a never ending rollercoaster of uncontrollable emotions. I wish I could unlatch myself and jump off to safety, but how safe would that really be? Right now, I’m ascending up the steepest part of the ride. Butterflies in my stomach, palms getting sweaty from anxiety as I clench the hand bars, close my eyes, all in preparation for the fall. And then I realize…

I’m tired of preparing myself to fall.

"Strength and growth come only through continuous effort and struggle."

Sat, 05 Jun 2010 19:58:17 -0700

“Strength and growth come only through continuous effort and struggle.”

- Napoleon Hill

Hopelessly Undevoted...

Thu, 01 Apr 2010 12:45:33 -0700

I use to think I was so sure of where my heart belonged. But in reality, I’m starting to figure out that the feelings I thought I had weren’t nearly as deep as I anticipated. Part of me wants to just believe I can still love the same. But the other part of me, so incredibly persuaded and shattered by horrifying experience, wants me to be isolated, alone, disconnected.

I almost feel obligated to be this image thrusted upon me by my environment. I want to just throw in the towel, knowing that as soon as I get up I will be shot down. Sometimes to grow and to evolve in life, we have to give up. I’m ready too. Believe me when I say I’m more than eager to give up and throw it all away… But I’m not going to give that satisfaction to those whose every wish is to see me hit rock bottom.

Whomever I loved, liked, or even disliked, I’m emotionally detatching from you. But its accidental… I can’t help but be Hopelessly Undevoted to you…

xoxo vickysecrets xoxo

New Beginnings. Where is my life heading next? Will I be happy?...

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 12:58:47 -0700

New Beginnings.

Where is my life heading next? Will I be happy? Will I be successful?

What does God have in store for me?

Whatever it is, I’m very excited to find out.

"“It’s really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don’t want to let go but..."

Fri, 05 Feb 2010 00:41:12 -0800

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“It’s really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don’t want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.”

“You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.”

”

- A broken-hearted girl.

Decisions Decisions...

Sun, 31 Jan 2010 20:36:10 -0800

There comes a point in everyone’s life where they have to make a decision that will shape the rest of your future or even break. But how do you know which decision is the right one? Do we have to fall to learn? Or can we automatically just make the right decision?

Where is the easy button when you need it? Truthfully, I’m an indecisive and utterly insane person when it comes to making my own choices. I can’t help it! One day, I’m set in stone on what I want, but then as soon as I get time to honestly think about it, is where the problem begins.

For instance, the military. I know I’m joining for sure. Or at least I think I do. DANG! There I go. Anyway, back to the main point. I have people in my life who are willing to support me in what ever I do. But then, I have people who truly love me that do not want me to even fathom the thought of being a part of the armed forces. There’s so much the Army can offer me. Even with that known, I get these people who disagree with my career who can persuade me there’s so much more the world can offer rather than the military. But is that really the truth?

Either way, at some point I have to make a decision. And believe me, its going to be a life changing decision.

And at that point, do you think you’ll be ready?’

xoxo vickysecrets xoxo

Even the best of our days are mistaken for our worst.

Mon, 18 Jan 2010 00:01:34 -0800

Even the best of our days are mistaken for our worst.

From ME to my DAD.

Thu, 14 Jan 2010 21:44:04 -0800

Me: Dad, PROCRASTINATION IS TAKING OVER MY LIFE!
Dad: Well, in order for it to take over your life you have to have one first silly.
Me: Thanks dad, I feel so confident in myself.
Dad: That would be great if you had something to be confident about.
Me: I love you Dad. You are like the ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. You just BRIGHTEN my world.
Dad: What do you want?
Me: Nothing Dad, you're happiness is all I need.
Dad: Whatever, do your homework.

LOL.

Never underestimate a woman. We’re stronger than you...

Wed, 13 Jan 2010 22:05:49 -0800

Never underestimate a woman. We’re stronger than you think.

"Love is the strongest bond between two natural beings, a bond in which could never be broken or..."

Mon, 11 Jan 2010 22:10:08 -0800

““Love is the strongest bond between two natural beings, a bond in which could never be broken or disgruntled. The moment this bond is broken, becomes the actuality that, that so called bond, is truly not love…””

- anonymous

The Affect of True Positivity.

Mon, 11 Jan 2010 21:46:00 -0800

I always wondered…

How far do people with optimism go? How long do people with negativity last?

I guess that no matter how hard you try to be positive, that there’s not always people willing to see from your point of view. I’ve had my struggle with these so called “Unhappy” people. Honestly, its not even worth it anymore. People live how they truly wish to live. I just want to know how far do you think that will take you?

Lets start with an analogy…

When you have a team, for instance, volleyball, how well do you think the team will do if the coach is a monotone, non-supportive, always negative coach. Will that team make it to state? Will they gain the confidence and skills necessary if they don’t have a coach who will get down to their level and help improve the mistakes or build skill? I guarantee about 99% of teams with these kind of coaches would never make it to state.

How bout another sport…

Let’s try dance. Hitting hard at home, right? Well, Within this dance team, how well do you think the team will do with captains who just sit atop the bleachers calling you how out on your moves but never correcting them on a one to one basis rather than embarrassing them or having them lose confidence and the spirit they need to improve? Or even better, how bout captains, or shall I say, CAPTAIN, who feels control is necessary and support is just a reward? What kind of scores would that team make in a competition? Certainly not enough for a 1st place.

I feel as though, being a positive leader, captain, coach, etc., makes for a good team. If someone were to constantly be negative, constantly be on your back, where’s the support in that? I don’t feel as if there is any. The most successful people in life are those who carry the will power and optimism in themselves and in others. You could only go so far with a broken wing…

Just try it for a day,

See how much of a difference your day could be. I’d bet it would turn out better than you have ever experienced.

Love and happiness,

xoxo vickysecrets xoxo

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Tue, 29 Dec 2009 01:23:00 -0800

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New Beginnings...

Tue, 29 Dec 2009 01:17:00 -0800

today:

i start to preserve my thoughts and memories.

life has just begun… <3